2020 took My Heart & Broke it Almost Sl*t My Throat I Lost My Mind, I Lost My Focus I’lI Keep It Real With Y’all I Died Inside My Life Eroded Self Destruction I Can’t Blame A Thing But My Emotions Especially In The Moment I Was Too Depressed To Sleep I Couldn’t Even Blink I Just Wanted To Run Away All I Did Was Drink Anything To Numb All the Pain I Didn’t Wanna Think Constantly Repeating Mistakes Repenting on a Beat… I Don't Even Know Where I Been At I Guess It’s Been a Blur I Thought I Had Sh*t Figured Out But Tables Turn & Bridges Burn The Grass is Never Greener On the Other Side, It’s Always Dirt I’m Wise Beyond My Years But Like They Say "There’s Always More to Learn" F*ck the Money, F*ck the Notoriety I Spit the Truth Music Is My Outlet & Without It I’d Be F*ckin' Doomed I Don't Give a F*ck If I Don't Blow Up Y’all Know Who is Who The Industry Could Suck My D*ck It’s Sick, I’m Stayin’ Far Removed Now I’m Seeing Clearly I Just Wanna Find Some Happiness Without It Depending On Someone Else That’s Not What Happy Is Loving Yourself For Being Yourself Is What It Actually Is Healing Myself Instead of Killing Myself I Wanna Live…

I Just Make The Same Old Mistakes I Just Repeat The Past I Can’t Make These Memories Fade They Always Seem To Last I Wish I Could Leave & Escape I’m Always Thinkin’ That The Life I Been Livin’ Is Fake I Hide Beneath A Mask I Fall Every Night From The Stars I Resemble Rain I Can’t Find A Drug That’s Strong Enough to Numb This Pain I Just Dont Belong On This Planet I’m F*ckin’ Strange When I Look at a Mirror I See Nothin’ But My Remains It’s Quiet on these Empty Streets You Can’t Even Hear A Sound Nothing's Makin' Any Sense Everything Is Upside Down God Knows I Was Never Blessed I Was Cursed To Sink & Drown I’m Takin’ The Devil's Test So Much People Put Me Down All I’m tryna do is prove em Wrong So I Keep Goin At It I Was At My Lowest Point I Really Did Become An addict I Coulda Just Gave In To My Shadows But that Didn’t Happen If you Can’t Relate To Me That Means That You Don’t Know What Sad is.

I Just Came to Say My Life is Hittin’ Different These Days The World I Live In Isn’t Real It’s Fake it’s Just a Dreamscape I Hide Inside My Mind Whenever I Feel Like I Need Space Time Stands Still Like a Picture, When I Think "Freeze Frame" Making Adjustments Yeah, I Just Moved to the City I See the Vision Even Clearer Now I’m Back on My Grizzy I Light the Swisher Just to Start My Starry Night Gettin’ Dizzy Then Put My Pen & Pad to Work Y’all Ready Know I Get Busy I’ll Never, Slow Down I Got Too Much Riding on This No One Understands I Give It All to Rap Relying on It I Stay on the Mic So Much Might F*ck Around & Die Up on It Genius With the Flows Cuz I Sold My Soul, I’m Diabolic Cold Blooded A Machine When It Come to This Makin’ Money I Can’t Check It Off My Bucket List I’m Heartbroken This Depression Make My Stomach Twist Off the Pills Again The Perkies Make My Muscles Twitch Real Problems, Everybody’s Got Em But These Ones Is Unique To Me I Promise You Don’t Want Em My Reflection Keeps On Eating Me Alive I’m Tryna Starve Em Keep My Head Above the Water For' I Sink Down to the Bottom (Verse 2) It’s Impossible to Settle Down With Too Much Paranoia When You Feel Like Something’s Out For You & Trying to Destroy Ya I Get Lonely When My Memories Remind Me That I’m No One My Emotions Ain’t the Only Thing That I Can’t Get A Hold Of No One’s On The Way to Save Me No One Loves Me, No One Hates Me Purgatory, No Escaping Only Facts, I Gotta Face It Life’s A Joke, Pure Entertainment It’s A Movie, Pick Your Favorite Once It’s On, No Way to Change It Hope You’re Happy Being Famous On to The Next Step Which is My Next Breath Taking this Sh*t Day By Day I Think That’s My Best Bet Every Night I Lay Wide Awake I Stress, I Don’t Get Rest Married to the Game Right Away, It Became My Bestfriend I Just Came to Say The Words I Write Come From My Heart An Open Window to My Very Being The Wounds Before They Scarred It Isn’t Easy Being Vulnerable But Everything is Hard When You Grow Used To No One Givin’ A F*ck About Who You Are...

I Was Suicidal Over You You Were All I Wanted I Thought About You Every Second After You Departed You Became My Home And They Say "Home is Where the Heart is" I Became Alone Again The Same Place That I Started Stuck With Feelings That I Wasn't Sure if I Could Trust I Listened to My Pain I Shoulda Listened to My Gut Cuz I Became So Manically Depressed It F*cked Me Up If Only I Accepted Everything For What It Was... Things Would Be Different I Wouldn't Be This Way Constantly Reminiscing Idealizing Your Name My Mind is Playing Tricks On Me Life is a Masquerade Atleast I Felt Loved For Once I Guess I Can't Complain I'm Immature at Times I'm Sure You Think I'm Childish Cuz When You Said That We Was Finished I Was Wylin We Went Through So Much Together We Ran Up Mileage Can't Even Lie I Can't Remember What a Smile Is

(Verse 1) I Don’t Wanna Keep on Tryin’ I Just Wanna K*ll Myself My Life isn’t Worth Livin’ it’s Way Too Hard To Be Myself I’m in the Same Position I’ve Always Been In, I Hate Myself i’m Gonna Give In Sooner or Later & F*ckin’ H*ng Myself Always on My Own Can’t Stand this Feelin’ of loneliness I Ain’t Go No Soul, It’s Gone I Traded It, I Sold That Sh*t Demons In My Brain Put the Chrome To It And Blow That B*tch i Cant Change But i Could End the Pain And Get It Overwith Heartbroken, Dr*g Addict pop pills & smoke xanax habits i can’t manage Damaged Till I Vanish Y’all Don’t Understand it’s like i’m bleeding out internally i’ll suffer even more when i burn in h*ll for eternity i know what my future look like i could i see it perfectly i’m leanin’ off the edge but i feel better off the purple drink (verse 2) i used to Fear God But Now All That Fear’s Gone Where’ve All My Tears Gone? Where've All The Years Gone? Pessimistic Since A Youngin’ i Think I Was Steered Wrong Jump Inside the Benz Hop on the freeway Then Steer Off (ya) Scrutinized & Crucified The Only Answer's S*icide Dead Inside, i’m like a zombie i’ve just been Dehumanized i don’t fit in with human kind Alone in my confusing mind New Flows I Revolutionized But No One Seems to Hear My Cries F*ck It Though Rule Number 1 Don’t Ever Trust A H*e The First Time That I Let Somebody Close They Chose To Let Me Go My Best Was Never Good Enough I Thought She Knew That Now I Know This sh*t feels like a set up How’d She Get Up & Just Hit the Road?